The worst thing about today is that I'm going to nearly my dream country and I'm scared like hell OTL That's clearly not how it supposed to feel I keep getting panic attacks, that no one waits for me there, and I will have to go through all the procedures like registration, visa formalities, medical examination and finding the place to live <- the biggest concern for now all by myself -_- and I will need to speak chinese to survive all these (which of course is the reason I'm going there, but no reasonable arguments help in my current state of mind). I'm thinking too much .____. and I still have A LOT to do before I go and not so much time actually.


Mimi smiling calms me down a bit ♥